Coffee Break

First order of business, I WON A SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!! And I got to exempt all my finals. Happy face!
Second, I've been a little annoyed with a certain situation as some of you may be aware of. Certainly you will agree, reader, that an instigator is a person who provokes a situation. Therefore, all I have to say is that I am not an instigator, I'm just tired of being told that I'm a selfish, conceited you-know-what. And I'm sorry, but I will no longer be the better person. Obviously I know that people will give their opinion in the matter and that is totally fine, but just like everyone, I have a breaking point and sorry but no more nice-lady.
Third, and to the point: DANCING

The reason I chose to write about this is because of this previous weekend (along with many others in which I've repeatedly realized this). I've come to the conclusion that there are two types of dancing

• Feeling

This is honestly the only way that dancing is truly enjoyed and honored. For many, many centuries cultures have developed dances to communicate the way they feel about certain things, therefore, when we hear a certain song, a special feeling arises within us. It can even bring back memories or produce strange emotions. When one dances with feeling, the song is truly enjoyed and so is the dancing. Its like synchronizing body movement with the notes of the song. Once you get the hang of dancing, the next step is to learn to identify the rhythms so that when dancing, the movements are natural and flowing. Flow! That's a big thing about dancing; when there is flow there is no fear of messing up. It's as if the music was guiding your every step and every turn. Whether its fast or slow, it will just come naturally, like breathing. YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT IT, YOU JUST DO IT! And that is the beauty of dancing. Forgetting about everyone else and just communicating with the audience in silent steps of happiness. Because truly, dancing with feeling produces happiness above all other things.

• Rhythmically Moving

Not everyone can dance, but everyone can learn to rhythmically move. But most of the time that looks like you have something stabbing your legs. The steps are off, the movement is awkward, the turns are too fast or too crazy. Rhythmically moving is worthy of admiration. It is bad enough to get the nerve to dance, specially when you don't know what to do. However, when Rhythmical Movement is archived, everything else SEEMS like a piece of cake. This type of dancing is the one that everyone first learns, because without it, you just don't have a clue. Your body moves with a beat and with counts. One two step one two step one two turn. That may seems like dancing and it actually CAN be good dancing, but it doesn't taste the same. You can't get into the song and there's no flow or natural movement. Rhythmical Movement is very ok and "passable" because it is, after all, dancing.

Besides these two there's no other way. Its either you know or you don't. Some people have an innate ability and they learn to feel the music almost at the same time as they are learning to rhythmically move. Those are the people that are so enjoyable to just simply watch. Of course if you are one of those people, well, even better. KUDOS.

Aabboouutt me. I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like this is just simple criticism, its not. Simply, it is my opinion based on observation. I've been to many kinds of parties and, some just piss me off; others don't. The ones that piss me off are the ones where there is no one that dances with feeling. The ones that don't are the ones where there are people that rhythmically move. So where do I stand? I think I'm in a midline. This is going to sound very conceited, but I won't lie. I do struggle in some genres more than with others. But I get dancing very well and I have a very high criticism of who I dance with...unless I have no choice. I like dancing with certain people more than with others, and why shouldn't I if I tend to get into the "feeling"? When a person who feels and one that rhythmically moves join together, you get a very enjoyable dance. When you get two that feel, now, that's what I'm talking about!

I guess I'm very disappointed in what I've seen the last couple of days. I really like dancing, I mean, hello I'm a teen! I made it my goal to learn and I did, what I didn't learn was to lose the fear. I admit it. Dancing with a stranger makes me nervous because I don't know what to expect. Then again, I don't usually turn down anyone...unless its like some old man that I've never seen in my life (which actually did happen to me...TWICE). I also like to teach people to dance but then again, in the Latin culture, it takes two to Tango, so I can only do so much. Its gotten to the point where I think that one of the features of my future husband is that he knows how to dance. That he LIKES dancing. I won't dream too far and expect a Mr. Dancing wit the Stars, but if its something that I enjoy so much, then he's got to have it. He's out there somewhere looking for me, our paths just haven't quite met. Yet.