Exiting news people! Coldplay has a new song and its very pretty :) Its called Every Teardrop is a Waterfall. Here's the link to its awesomeness
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Kf_6BWcOOg&feature=youtu.be
So its been like two months that I can't sleep. By this I mean I literally can't fall and stay asleep. Here's how my typical night/day goes (I will use the example of me being in school because its easier that way. Oh yes I graduated BTW)
It's ten PM and I'm getting ready for bed. I brush my teeth and put on my pjs. I lay in bed. I will lay there for two hours at least. I'll sit there and think and think and think. The person who had been texting me from earlier is also awake and since I can't sleep we'll text. At about one AM I'll get sleepy and shut my eyes. At about four AM I will wake up in a cold sweat. Again at about five, I'll start waking up because since four I've been half asleep and half conscious. Then I start dreaming crazyness and in my dreams I'll know I'm dreaming so I tell myself to wake up just before my alarm goes off. I get up super tired but drag myself to school. During first period I fight to not fall asleep unlike third period; which when I get a chance I will put my head down and crash. By lunch I feel ok but again in fifth period I will fight very very hard to not fall asleep, but when the lesson is over, again I put my head down waiting for the bell. As soon as I come home I can't take it anymore so again, I lay in bed and sleep until my dad comes home which is about four PM. Then I'll wake up from a sleep that was almost perfect. After that it just go back to the beginning. That bloody half sleep.
So during one of these nights not long ago, I was texting a friend. It started off early in the evening but by the time I got to bed I was kinda into the conversation so I waited for the text replies as I do for everyone with long intervals (this is what I call it when someone takes long to reply). So in between all those intervals I got into my thinking. I used to believe that I couldn't sleep because my thoughts distracted me, but it turns out that its a medicine I have to take and my doctor just doubled my dosage. I wish it was one of those medicines that was almost optional to take, like my old acne stuff, but this I have to take it. So anyways, I got into my thinking; and let me just clarify that that night it was very, very hot and I couldn't even stay in one position for long. "What are you thinking about??? If you stop thinking then sleeping will come much easier." I wish it were that easy.
When no one is around and all I hear is the sound of silence, my loudest thoughts fill my mind. They are not very happy thoughts though. Its mostly stress and things I have to do. Then all that gets mixed up with things that happened during the day. To finalize my thoughts, I get very wrapped up....
This blog shall not be finished. In fact what I was going to tell you shall be left unmentioned. This is what I will do, DELETE THAT CONVERSATION FROM MY PHONE. Because it was stupid to get carried away and let hope dig into my soul that maybe something good could come out of it. All I know is that this is the last time I have sympathy over a stranger.
