I really don't know how to write this blog because I thought I did but turns out I don't. You see reader, old people are wise. They have lived life in every shape and they know what's up. I love talking to old people and asking them what things were like and just listening. I think that's the only way I know how to shut up and actually listen...
Old is good.
I never thought I would appreciate having old friends. Now don't take me wrong, by old I don't mean 52, I just mean older than me. Usually people who are are least 2-4 years older than me tend to be right all the time. The same goes for me having younger friends, I'm always right. Basically its the "been there, done that" situation. I didn't think I would mind age differences but lately turns out I do. I don't like to babysitt and I don't like to be babysitted. Humans like their freedom, which is actually something we don't do too well with. We are born to be ruled, so technically, we cannot be free ever.
So what happens when I'm wrong??? I sit here and blog. That's what happens.
Tonight I'm blogging about old people and friendships because I have come to find that I like being wrong. Yeah, yeah, I may not show it but that does not mean anything. What counts is how I feel inside. Actually, that goes for everyone and everything. Its not about words, its about actions. Tonight I am thinking on how wrong I have been in thinking that I could settle a deal with a guy and keep it. Well I'm stupid.
Anyone who has known me for about a day knows that I cannot contain my expressions and emotions. If I'm sad I cry, if I'm happy I laugh, if I'm comfortable I fart, if I'm lazy I wear no make-up, if I'm angry I overreact. I'm no mystery at all!!! In fact, I tend to open up to the wrong people. That makes me sad. I'm still as naive as I was three years ago if not more. Who am I to kid? I'm absolutely nothing outstanding! Plain is good for me, in fact, I actually like being invisible.
My invisibility is my absoulte shield against the forces of guys' evil. It keeps me off the radar and in a very safe friend zone. I like that!! I mean, I've got goals and if I go under the radar, then I have to pick between my goals or that other 'r' word.
*blegh*relationship*yuck* *shivers*
I don't want a relationship. I mean I do, just not now. I like the way things are going now. I mean, good things don't happen to me but I take mediocre. Except this time I'm actually having fun! I feel like I'm beginning to live my life. I'm laughing, I'm meeting people, I'm going places, I'm doing things, I'm going above and beyond and I even break the rules!!! I am as happy as I get.
I also don't like to be led on. Which is why I'm glad I have old friends to keep me with my feet on the gound. I can't say I can't wait to be old, but I certainly appreciate wisdom.
The Story by Brandi Carlile
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
