Gaia

The above term means earth. I think its a very pretty word and therefore I am going to use it to give this blog a tittle.

I've been skipping class a lot lately because I cannot keep my focus. I am easily distracted by my million gazillion concerns and troubles in life. First of all I've got 3 friends with issues. I wish so badly with all  my heart that I could just not care. That I could step aside and let them figure it out without me feeling completely guilty. I also wished I could stop trying to find excuses to blame myself for every one else's misfortune. (Heck, I even think world hunger is my fault!) Then I have another friend who is uninformed about a certain situation and when they do find out, all bloody hell is going to break lose, and yet again, I am going to feel responsible. Then there is also the issue that I am about to go out of a job. Like soon. Like in a month. That doesn't scare me because I don't mind resting all summer and hanging out. Only too bad I actually signed up to take three classes over the summer and now I HAVE to get a job and pay for them. I haven't had many complications at work actually, except for the fact that I have run out of movies to show the kids and my coworker ends up allowing not-so-appropriate movies and already one parent has complained... I'm freaking out becase I did want to have a nice little encuraging chat with my elders just for the plain heck of literally, encouragement, but now I don't know what I'm going to tell them. In fact, I haven't decided if I actually sitll want to talk to them. Oh and an investigator called us recently, making me feel like my life is in some prominent danger. Other than that, I think everything is going just well.

I mean, I am healthy right? Sort of??? My allergies haven't bothered me...sort of??? I don't have to worry about a stupid boyfriend!!! That's really good right??? I'm almost done with this semester too, and if everything goes well, I'm going to pass all my classes. I also have my family, oh and my sister is graduating from High School. Yay sister! Oh and today is one of my bffs' last day of beauty school (congrats my love!!) so now we can hang out more. I've also got my house, my baby (aka car), my clothes, my current job that I really like, my relationship with my dearest creator, I've got close friends that I love and would give my life for, I've got my lapi-top (with my currently most favorite wallpaper), I'm going to see Coldplay (AAAAAAAAHHH), my parents have their jobs, oh yeah and I'm alive.

Speaking of summer, I would like to do some things so hence the Summer list:

1. Finish reading at least 5 theocratic books (I always start and never finish)
2. Go out on early service every saturday (I quit during winter...)
3. Find a summer job (I want to keep working with kids)
4. Read one or two pleasure books (no problem with that one)
5. Pass all my classes (Two math...eek!)
6. Go on a vacation (New Orleans and New York are on my US bucketlist)
7. Save money for next semester (because I've been stubborn enough to not get FAFSA)
8. Join a gym and loose 20 lbs (I've almost joined two in the last two months but I always back out)
9. Rearrange my room ( and decorate it!)
10. Throw a party (small, nothing too big...maybe)
11. Get a new phone/company (I'm very please with t-mobile, but my family complains a lot)
12. Make a summer album (not a scrapbook)
15. Make two mock videos (I already chose the songs and actors)
16. Plan my trip to France (that's a future blog)
17. Have a garage sale (so I can buy me clothes!)
18. Make a new friend ( I always do this over each summer)
19. Work on "Where I Really Belong" (long-term unfinished proyect)
20. Have lots of fun drama-free (please?)

Gaia is a word that reminds me that this whole place we live in is very big, and there is always someone who is in a worse situation than me. I'm going to focus, or at least try. I'm going to flush my mind of all these worries and just let go of my pain. Its a lovely life when we really stop to think about it.